If one could bother to imagine being dropped off in some kind of unknown territory, never experienced before. And creatures are lurking around all over the place. You jump. You run. You dodge. Or you throw something at them. How many of these things are there to look out for? This was not in the brochure! And yet this is how most of us treat anger, sadness, confusion and many of the other emotions.
Right now, I am writing another book on goal-setting. More elements that are factored into a person’s effort to maintain personal goals have occurred to me with each sentence I construct. There are so many experiences which I can attest to regarding how assumptions of other people’s behavior can get in the way and waste time. I put in an example concerning my tendency to pout and grumble when someone else is using the laptop and I am wanting to write. Sometimes my want
is driven by a blind passion to create. By blind I mean letting my frustration build up with every moment I don’t get to do what I want. My brain isn’t connected to my mouth at the time. I start thinking “She (my wife) could care less if I ever get to write!”
Instead of scheduling a couple of hours in the evening to write and telling Christy way before this appointed time, I get into the habit of relying on impulse. This results in me wanting to tackle something in the middle of her activity. So here I go with the silent, festering angst which slowly builds up by each consecutive moment that my fingers aren’t hitting the keys. Passion and a spin-cycle of fabricated “unfair” thoughts have a strangle hold on my tongue, of course until I decide to say “Christy. I need to get on the laptop” and see what happens.
David W. Peace